i cried today.
i cried for my unworthiness
i cried for my lack of faith in God
i believe in people. like the roman centurion who believes
if he tells his servant "do this", it will be done
i believe in things, that when i step into a lift
it will take me to the floor i've pressed to go
that my room won't cave in or crumble like a house of cards
it's a simple faith i have in the world
and things of the world

yet i lack faith in what really matters
i forget to put God in the centre of my life
i forget to come to Him when making decisions
i forget that when i'm tired and weary
He is the one who will give me rest
i draw away on my own
and choose not to sit at His feet
so that i might be able to catch the crumbs of His precious teachings
or so that i might be comforted in his presence

now am drained and fatigued
so tired that i may only lie prostrate
the world will only shuffle by in silence
or kick and step on my weary body
but He comes down to me
He breathes life into me
He strengthens me with His love
He brings Himself low as me
and i am shamed by my unworthiness
and His great love for someone as wretched as me
for someone who holds her life in such a miserly and vice-like grip


i'm tired of running from you

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ARTIST| Relient K
TITLE| I So Hate Consequences
ALBUM| Mmhmm
And im good good good to go,
And im good good good to go
I got to get away,
get away from all of my mistakes
[ repeat ]

So here I sit looking at the traffic lights
The red extinguishes the hope that the green ignites
I want to run away I want to ditch my life
Cause all of my mistakes keep me awake at night

And after all of my alibis desert me
I just want to get by
I don’t want nothing to hurt me
I had no idea where my head was at
But if my heart says I’m sorry can we leave it at that
Because I just want for all of this to end

And I so hate consequences
And running from you is what my best defense is
Whoaa! Consequences
Oh God, don’t make me face up to this
And I so hate consequences
And running from you is what my best defense is
Cause I know that I let you down
And I don’t want to deal with that

And I’m good, good, good to go
And I’m good, good, good to go
I got to get away
Get away from all of my mistakes

It just now hit me this is more than just a set back
And when you spelled it out, well, I guess I didn’t get that
And every trace of momentum is gone
And this isn’t turning out the way I want

And after all of my alibis desert me
I just want to get by
I don’t want nothing to hurt me
I had no idea where my head was at
But if my heart says I’m sorry can we leave it at that
Because I just want for all of this to end

And I so hate consequences
And running from you is what my best defense is
Whoaa! Consequences
Oh God, don’t make me face up to this

And I so hate consequences
And running from you is what my best defense is
Cause I know that I let you down
And I don’t want to deal with that

And I spent all last night
Tearing down
Every stoplight
And stop sign in this town
Now I think there might
Be no way to stop me now
I'll get away despite
The fact I’m so weighed down

All of my escapes have been exhausted
I thought I had a way but then I lost it
And my resistance was once much stronger
And I know I can't go on like this much longer

When I got tired of running from you
I stopped right there to catch my breath
There your words they caught my ears
You said, “I miss you son. Come home”
And my sins, they watched me leave
And in my heart I so believed
The love you felt for me was mine
The love I’d wished for all this time
And when the doors were closed
I heard no I told you so’s
I said the words I knew you knew
Oh God, Oh God I needed you
God all this time I needed you, I needed you

And I so hate consequences
And running from you is what my best defense is
I hate these consequences
Cause i know that i let you down,
and i don't wanna deal with that

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0. oOo

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