Tuesday, March 13
dying thoughts of time; thoughts of a dying time.
the world darkened yesterday.
lost its didacticism and pedagogic content
you can posit for two hours that time does not exist
that truths and facts of time periods
will be, are, and have always been as they are.
if so, there are no surprises.
only recollections.
reminiscence, perception, projection
and all things recede.
they fade into the distant past.
you can shut yourself in an ivory tower
and trudge on, by means of pure logic.
but humans are not beings of pure reason.
you can deny the existence of time.
but you cannot deny the pain
of unexpected events that occur in time.
if the force of gravity of our world was so huge
that one could not move upwards...only sideways
does that mean that vertical travel is therefore impossible?
if the force of time is so large
that one is forced to flow along its unilinear path
does that then mean that it is impossible then,
to reverse the direction of one's passage through it?
i bought a bouquet of roses to place on my bedroom table.
red roses mean love
yellow roses, separation.
my roses are orange.
a soft fragrance emanates from them
i'm sorry for all the time i've wasted
i'm sorry for all the opportunities i've let slip away.
i'm sorry for not cherishing the gift of life
the ability to eat and drink
the ability to walk on my own two feet
the ability to lift my hands
the ability to speak
the ability to have hopes and dreams
the ability to carry them out.
how many things have i taken for granted in my life?
to be able to step out of my house
to feel the sun and rain on my face
to have friends
to celebrate a birthday
to carry weights and expectations
to be able to create and destroy.
there are no lives not worth living.
but God,
still i do not understand
why do people have to suffer needless pain?
why do children die
why is it that some people can't have the chance to live
do we all have souls
do all dogs go to heaven
or have you privileged your children?
the end of the world is the end of a life.
maybe i'll see you in heaven
maybe then i'll understand...
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